A long time ago, well not really that long ago I used to be a full member of the digital community. I was a troll on myspace, a "writer" on my livejournal, and a creeper on a xanga. I left all three after I met the supposable girl of my dreams which ended up of course was the object of my fancy, yet her interest faded along with the majority of her love. It left me, well upset and broken but not horribly depressed like I'd imagine it would have been. Well to be honest the word depressed would easily fit into the vocabulary of how I felt the last 4 or so months, I know it is not only her that infected my mental well being, I also graduated from college last December, I was happy triumphant, and relaxed but instead of these feelings lasting a harsh reality set in and honestly just demolished any tunnel that could lead to any light in my future.
So I'm struggling. Looking outward for something that could make me smile at times where I thought nothing could. I want my thoughts reorganized and I want the random messages lodged in my brain to be set in some sort of odd order even if in the end it only seemed like I'm speaking nonsense.
So.. I created this blogspot (well some time ago I did) with the full intention of writing what is on my mind out on some database somewhere (most likely in
I want to start writing better, I want to start thinking more clearly, and attempt to start to calm the nerves that seem to be way over stretched past their limits. I don't want this to be a requiem of past feeling and relationships, or it to be a pathetic pity party or even a cry for attention. I want this to be my thoughts or maybe a little more.
I only wish I could write something as clever as "I hate you all." or some other type of pithy comment to make me sound as if I was this absolute genius, but I don't have that talent, yet.
That’s really it for now..
Go Celtics.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
So...
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"Do you want free porn?" (some bot on my old blog)
Well neither did I.
But in all seriousness we totally need to hang out sometime. Jordan i think should be coming up this weekend or next weekend, if you wanna come up and say hey, and not worry about spending the assload of gas it takes to get here.
Writing mends the heart very quickly. You'll see. I'm right there with you.
A long time ago, well not really that long ago I used to be a full member of the digital community. I was a troll on myspace, a "writer" on my livejournal, and a creeper on a xanga. I left all three after I met the supposable girl of my dreams which ended up of course was the object of my fancy, yet her interest faded along with the majority of her love. It left me, well upset and broken but not horribly depressed like I'd imagine it would have been. Well to be honest the word depressed would easily fit into the vocabulary of how I felt the last 4 or so months, I know it is not only her that infected my mental well being, I also graduated from college last December, I was happy triumphant, and relaxed but instead of these feelings lasting a harsh reality set in and honestly just demolished any tunnel that could lead to any light in my future.
Texas
So I'm struggling. Looking outward for something that could make me smile at times where I thought nothing could. I want my thoughts reorganized and I want the random messages lodged in my brain to be set in some sort of odd order even if in the end it only seemed like I'm speaking nonsense.
So.. I created this blogspot (well some time ago I did) with the full intention of writing what is on my mind out on some database somewhere (most likely in
I want to start writing better, I want to start thinking more clearly, and attempt to start to calm the nerves that seem to be way over stretched past their limits. I don't want this to be a requiem of past feeling and relationships, or it to be a pathetic pity party or even a cry for attention. I want this to be my thoughts or maybe a little more.
I only wish I could write something as clever as "I hate you all." or some other type of pithy comment to make me sound as if I was this absolute genius, but I don't have that talent, yet.
That’s really it for now..
Go Celtics.
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